Life Is Full of Excuses Not To Live

‘The trick is not how much pain you feel — but how much joy you feel. Any idiot can feel pain. Life is full of excuses to feel pain, excuses not to live, excuses, excuses, excuses.’ — How To Save Your Own Life, Erica Jong

As a teenager, I always figured I would grow up to self-destruct.

It seemed like the logical progression.

I was fascinated by notions of addiction, annihilation, intoxication, obliteration, by dark smoky bars and running through city